Well. It has been a month and 10 days since I've last posted. I wonder how many of you still check my blog frequently if not, occasionally to see if I've written anything new. Anyway, these last 51 days have been pretty good and not as dramatic as the last post. I'm just here because I feel my blog is a special responsibility that I should not leave for too long. And so, I am back and hopefully will be able to post far more frequently. However it's been a pretty good hiatus. I've been starting things afresh after many emotional car crashes. I feel like I'm finally back on my feet after the longest time. But just merely.
Lately, I've lost friends and gained new ones, and grew closer to many people I imagined would not have been possible. Since my last post, I've moved on, though I still get tiny little emotional nudges here and there whenever I see him, but surprisingly, he and I have become pretty good friends. I talk to him about random things, we share puns, I punch him (playfully with no intention of hurting him) in the gut, and we trade food during lunch time. I feel like after experiencing one of the worst emotional storms in my life, I'm kinda "rewarded" with a rainbow. (Does that make sense?) And that rainbow, is he and I becoming close friends.
Another friendship that's becoming close than ever is Iris, Sarah and I's. Everyday at school now, we sit together and share things and talk and talk and talk and it's lovely because I've never felt so close to anyone in such a long time. It feels so good because I'm friends with people who actually care about me, who love God to the ends of the Earth, and relate to me so much to the point where it's uncanny. I love us so, so much.
Yet another friendship that's growing stronger is one between God and I. I feel, that for so long, I've lost touch with God and it was probably one of the worst things ever. But one day, I decided to pick up my Bible, and now I feel as though I'm slowly winding in with God's loving hands again. Not that it ever left me, I just couldn't feel it. Some 51 days ago I felt that whenever someone told me to talk to God whenever I had a problem, I considered it the worst advice ever because that's how far I was from Him. But now, things have changed and it's the most wonderful thing ever.
I feel like my grades have been going up, too. I got a C in my last maths test which is the highest I've gotten in this school! Even my teacher said I have improved and I've done a good job. I'm really happy since maths is my weakest subject. I'm aiming for a B the next test. Yay!
You know what, I felt as though 2014 was going to be the worst year of my life, but I think it's turning out quite okay.
So yup. This post was not some grumbly, whiny post about how sad I am. Nope. It's a happy one, to let you guys know that I'm alive and doing quite well. I'm happy. For now. :)
Also, I've just read The Book Thief which was so so good and so beautifully written and so emotional just. Wow.
Alright thanks for reading! Yay!
AND WAIT. Have you noticed? I redecorated my blog! :D
xx.
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