release your high hopes and they'll survive

Oh my gosh.
I haven't blogged since forever. Sorry.
Okay, so a lot has been happening and it's too much to put into words. First things first, being a teen is hard. And it's funny that I say that because I'm not even officially a teen yet. Emotions are frustrating, that's one thing I've noticed this year. I've experience a lot of different emotions internally with myself, and I've experience the emotions that my friends have. I hate that a lot of the conversations that I have with me friends involve boys. And I hate that I need that have someone to be interested in, to occupy my mind, to think about. I hate that. I've been writing songs lately, and I've noticed that love is the only thing I can write about. I can't write about the weather, or how awesome my friends are, it somehow always comes back to that four letter word that's got everyone confused with everything.

Is it because we want to experience "love" ourselves? Are we, as like, teens, looking for something that we're not supposed to have until we're older and more mature? Everybody wants a go at love, that's what I think. And everybody wants something, or someone to love in their lifetime. It could be your record collection that you've started since the '80s, it could be that new boy band whose songs always, always come on the radio, or it could simply be your family.
Love is complicated, that's what I've gathered. It's not easy. Nobody said it would be. People say love is a game. And I have to disagree with that. Love is definitely not a game. Love is something that you earn and respect from someone. Love can't be something that you can fool around with. Love is supposed to be special. Now, a handful of my friends are talking about getting boyfriends, some of them already have boyfriends. I mean, it's not that I'm totally against it, like if you and him (or you and her) are really serious about being serious then I mean, no one can stop you. (well, unless your parents disapprove) But love isn't always about getting a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Love can be within a group of friends. This is often referred to as "The Friendzone" *insert scream here*
But I think that The Friendzone is actually pretty cool. Love can be shared between a circle of friends. Friends can love each other in a friend way, no problem with that. Friends after all, got your back covered and they really are something to you. There's no problem with loving a friend as a friend, even if you're a guy or a girl. Wouldn't love would be better suited for more mature and serious, but the again, how do you really know when you're mature and serious?
I'm only so young, but a lot of my friends are already going through "heartbreak", and I feel for them, I really do, but sometimes, I wonder what it'll be like to have a boy-free conversation for once.

I can't say I'm perfect, too, though. I have crushes, and I don't know if that's good or not. Because when I grow up and have a steady relationship with someone, I don't want to be eyeing on other people, that would be really, really bad. Okay. I think too much. I talk too much, too. I'm sorry. I just think that love is a touchy subject with a lot of people. And a lot of people still think that love is something that can totally be taken lightly. Sad, really. Okay, I'm sorry if you think that I think too much. I just, really like to talk about stuff that no one talks about.

But on the bright side, I went to WSC today and had like tons of fun. Also, Josh introduced me to like a bunch of people who make music that no one really knows. (Bonus!) Thing is, I really like listening to bands and solo artists that no one really knows. And no, that's not being hipster, because just so you know, being hipster is mainstream. (Another valuable lesson from Josh :D )
Okay, so he plans to make an indie out of me, lawl. Okay, sorry about the sudden change of subject, but I've given up on radio music. Can't you see? Writers don't even try when they write music. It's all about living while you're young, are partying till you see the sun, or looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend at a party. Like, seriously. Okay, I'm gonna go and do whatever I'm supposed to do with my time.
I hope you found this post useful, though. Take it into thought and digest it like biscuits. (I'm not going to explain that.) BYE. :)