diamonds boast that they can't be crushed

HI. I am really sorry for not posting for a loooooong time. I've been super busy lately and barely had ANY time to blog about anything. :(

Anyway, I'm just going to quickly sum up the remainings of June:

They moved me. Yes. They moved me and Zoey to the upper class. It was somewhat devastating, to be honest. Even in such a short span of two weeks, I'd already grown to love my classmates. But yes, I got used to being in the upper class, since everyone is actually really nice. We even got a new kid in the class. He's really really nice and speaks really really well. So yes.

Now that July has started, I'm finding it hard to absorb the very fact that half of the year has gone, and that kinda makes me think, what have I done this year? And I honestly think, not very much. Besides the amazing weekend I had filming for Chasing Waterfalls, I hadn't really done anything at all.
So am I really living life to it's fullest? I don't think so.

The thing is, I don't really know how I feel about church anymore. I mean, I know Christianity is the one and only way to Heaven, but I'm just not "feeling" it anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm drifting further away from earth, to get caught up in my reality. And I really want to stay there forever, without a care for anything.

And sometimes I worry about my future and how I'm going to end up. I just, I just don't know what to do about well, everything. What if, I just disappeared away from here? Into somewhere unknown? I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Why am I so confused about everything?

This is going nowhere.
I'm sorry if you expected more out of this post, but honestly, I just can't seem to be able to find the right time for everything.
I just don't know.
I don't know.
I don't.