Okay.
It's really late/early right now. And if you have no idea what I mean by that, it's 2:17 AM. I know this is really unhealthy, but I can't sleep because gosh. A lot has been going on lately (ugh, as usual) and well, I guess that's where a blog comes in.
Okay, so school this week was pretty nice. Everyone treated me nicely, and the teachers were great this week, so everything was pretty much okay. But well, look, with some experience, you're probably thinking that it's not the subjects or the teachers I want to talk about, and you're right. It's the people I want to talk about.
This week Iris and Sarah were especially nice to me. Well, Sarah is always, always nice and I'm very grateful for her. Also, Jarrod came back from Aussieland and brought back a lovely boomerang keychain for me. I'm also very grateful for Jarrod because he's a wonderful person with a wonderful heart. I think, I think I might have a crush on someone in my class. I'm not going to mention his name, for personal reasons, but for the sake of convenience, let's just call him Marvin, which is not his actual name, but, well, you get the point. Anyway, Marvin's been becoming excessively attractive (and not in looks, but in personality) over this week, and he's been super nice to me. Marvin's a nice person I have to say. And we've been talking a lot lately too.
Point is, I really don't like feeling like this. I don't know why, I just don't. I don't like feeling this way about him because I know so little about him. And ZM and Chris have told me a bit, but there's so much more to discover about him, and right now is definitely a very bad time to get involved in anything. BUT UGH. I AM SO CONFUSED AND LOST AND BROKEN.
And here's another problem, I've been talking to another guy who, for again, personal reasons, we'll call him Ned. By the way, Ned is the guy I talk a lot to on Twitter.
Anyhow, last night, I was talking to Ned and well, we were talking about random stuff, and then he got to the subject of how he was caught in a mess with his friends. But by then it was late, so he said that we'd talk about it in the morning, which I was totally fine with. So in the morning, we DM-ed each other about this problem and I literally became his counselor, which personally, I'm very proud of. And I told him, that since he was the main troublemaker that he had to try his best to get things right.
So tonight, when I finally got to talk to him again, which was around 8 or 9 PM, we talked about how it went along. And gosh, I don't know. Ned and Marvin are two very nice people, but I haven't seen Ned in ages. And I see Marvin everyday at school. But Ned and I understand each other so well. But Marvin is so nice and friendly. I DON'T KNOW.
Oh yeah, and tonight also while we were talking, we kinda got to more personal subjects and well, I don't Ned has this funny habit of logging of without saying bye. But for some odd reason, he said bye tonight. Sigh.
But today at school Marvin and I talked about stuff and it was so nice just talking to him, because he was one of the guys that was really nice and not weird at all. Besides Jarrod and Arthur, of course.
I hate being so emotionally unstable. Did almost two years of homeschooling ruin me for normal school? I don't know. And I don't want to like two guys at once because it's WEIRD and not good at all. UGH. That's my mood right now. I'M FEELING JUST UGH.
And there's church tomorrow which I don't really know if I'm excited for or not.
On the brighter side though, today I bought Looking For Alaska by John Green and I really love the book a lot. BUT GUESS WHAT.
When I posted a photo of the book on Instagram, a friend of mine SPOILED THE FREAKING ENDING FOR ME. AND I AM SO MAD BECAUSE I SPENT MY MONEY ON A BOOK THAT I NOW KNOW THE ENDING FOR GAWD WHY. SHE. JUST. HAD. TO.
I guess this isn't really bright, after all.
OHYEAH. And to make matters worse, I've got a bad case of the cough, and it's so uncomfortable. And my throat feels terrible. And to top it all off, I have a huge ulcer. OH LIFE WHY.
AND THE INTERNET'S NOT COOPERATING EITHER.
Oh wow I don't usually complain like this. I guess everything is just. UGH.
Okay yes, I'm done raging.
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